Thursday, July 24, 2003

i find myself
caught
in a neverending
cycle
of melancholy
and lethargy
nowadays
even debate doesnt
always drag me out
of this vicious cycle
and that isnt
good
i've noticed some strange
inexplicable behaviour settling in
some weird stupor
i find myself constantly engaging in
my mind is dulled
my health degenerates
sometimes
i dont feel like doing anything
except
doing nothing
and i hate it
i hate coming home early
i hate having no homework
i hate just playing the computer
for the sake of it
i hate having no obligations
i hate having no expectations
i hate having no aim
no purpose
nothing to do

next week
HCJC invitationals will be over
the first round where i'll be speaking
for the interclass debates
will be held
as well as a supposed twice a week training
hopefully
that will snap me out of my melancholic
lethargy
cos if that doesnt
i dont know what will


trapped!


posted by S @ Thursday, July 24, 2003

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