Omerta

well
its alll over
all over
yeah
the paradigm has shifted properly
what was supposed to swing to
the other extreme
stopped
right in
the middle
leaving me nowhere
nowhere at all
belonging neither here or there
perhaps i was a bit rash
or harsh
but i was scared
and i make no apologies
cos in retrospect
i see no wrong
 
i remember the time
i was practically shoutin
at dad
insisting that he didnt trust me
he didnt trust me
to type his email
to do his online work
to check somethin about the house
he didnt trust me
it was so logical
he tried to argue back
said that i might have seen things wrong
and i went on and on
proving the links
until he said
maybe you see things differently
and at that exact same moment
i realise i did make a mistake
in what i was doing for him
a mistake that would have
had dire consequences
if he had not pointed it out
trust.
is.
manifold.
 
anyway
i dont care
ive made my stand
if things dont turn out alright?
oh well
ill just move along
go somewhere else
or just stay with the musks
or ill just turn to another group
my teammates perhaps?
yeah
i guess
 
paul, john, adriel, jacob, josh
5 people
how..
poignant
 
ive given up on caring
its easier that way
so
enough of that wishy washy
nonsense
its back to
the rugby ball
the debate floor
and above all
acsi
and not
that other place
that i go to.
for now.
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 do it ala stefan
 
 
 
 

posted by S @ Sunday, July 18, 2004