Omerta

and so the axe fell
on what should have been
a happy day
and so the axe fell
on this september friday

i have a photo
above my computer
john
paul
myself
once a reality
now a dream
a sweet memory

i have a distribution list in my phone
john
paul
myself
once useful
now a symbol
a memoir of what once was

i have a debate book
john
paul
myself
what was supposed to be
the beginning of victory
now
a lost goal
an unacheivable objective

i still remember
that training
when we were split into teams
and i think it was john who wasnt in
but paul and i
begged and cajoled
and we were in the same team
team c

i still remember
that first debate
thw ban smoking
when we realised
our surnames started with c
we debated that motion
but before that we prayed
we wont that debate
and after that we prayed

i still remember the stayover
during the march hols
one night
of pure hard work
checking on each other
helping each other
drinking
eating
laughing
and writing our dep applications
all together
and we all got in

i still remember
that time
at expo
when we wasted 4 hours of our lives
together
sitting
idling
sleeping
talking
just waiting for the teams to come

i still remember our first competitive debate
youth14 quarters
thbt tourism is a global menace
against
rgs
what was the ac y14 teams
best debate
in the whole tournament
a comfortable win
with the letter
c
inscribed over our names on the whiteboard

i still remember
the dreams we had
of holding up
that elusive jg trophy
together
as one

i still remember

john
thank God for BMC
FL, Jyc
that we'll still be friends as musketeers
but im just..
lost
to know
that the next four years
(God willing)
of my life in ac
will be sans you
that we'll never debate as team c
under the ac banner
im just..confused
of acdb8s future
im just sad..
to know
that after what has been
two years
of brilliant debates
the time of team c
has come to an end
before it started in full

i know i have so much less to complain about
than paul
but still...
and
just
God bless
in your education in NJC
in your debates in NJC
in your life in NJC
and
even though
the bonds that hold us together
will be so sorely weakened
id like to think
that they wld never be broken
and ill keep dreaming
and hoping
that one day
we'll go the distance
you
paul
and
i
ill keep dreaming
and ill always remember
how my two years in acsi
have been illuminated
by your presence as a friend
in school
that i could endure
lin huis screaming
lousy math marks
not understanding my science
because i looked forward
to team c trng at the end of the day
and..
itll be different
in school
in debate
without you there
itll be different for both of us
but yeah
God bless
and
we'll remember

Packing up the dreams God planted
In the fertile soil of you
Can’t believe the hopes he’s granted
Means a chapter in your life is through
But we’ll keep you close as always
It won’t even seem you’ve gone’cause our hearts in big and small ways
Will keep the love that keeps us strong

And friends are friends forever
If the lord’s the lord of them
And a friend will not say never’cause the welcome will not end
Though it’s hard to let you go
In the father’s hands we know
That a lifetime’s not too long to live as friends.

With the faith and love god’s given
Springing from the hope we know
We will pray the joy you’ll live in
Is the strength that now you show
But we’ll keep you close as always
It won’t even seem you’ve gone’cause our hearts in big and small ways
Will keep the love that keeps us strong

And friends are friends forever
If the lord’s the lord of them
And a friend will not say never’cause the welcome will not end
Though it’s hard to let you go
In the father’s hands we know
That a lifetime’s not too long to live as friends.

faith
hope
love
amongst these
only love remains
and this is my prayer
that they love we shared as brothers in Christ
as team c
will last
forever

thought our dreams of eternity may be shattered
still we press on
fighting
determined
though this setback strikes us hard
still we press on
and if we might fail
we know
that we've done the school proud
for the Best Is Yet to Be

so many more things to say
but for once in my life
my language fails me
this emotion in me
unexpressable
Gluck John
wherever you might be




team c

posted by S @ Friday, September 03, 2004