Omerta

i am truly incensed
everything
and i mean
everything
on my internet
has turned into chinese
i despise lin hui
its all her fault.
i know it.

anyway
just going with the flow
seeing how all the other
musks have already blogged

several days/weeks to christmas now
dont feel particularly joyful
or merry
hah
i dont know why either

a random thought perhaps
but it just came to me just now
situations
where
a person
has two good friends
sharing their secrets
funny thing really
is that when the good friends
turn to that person
and EXPECT
the person to give up information
given by OTHER people
a tad confusing the way i explain it
but really
what is sanct?
what is..
no
what SHOULD
be placed first?
the trust
that any friend places in you
or the fact
that close friends
share more things
with each other
as compared to
normal friends?
to prioritse friendship?
or just maintain neutrality?
what would be more integrous?
(if such a word exists)

now
where was i
nowhere
hm
again
nowhere
there used to be a site
nowhere.com
quite brilliant
pity they took it off the net
i spent a good half hour there
watching digital birds chirp

well
2am and im still up
haha

on another note
i have this curious friend
see
thing is
i dont really trust him alot
i was utterly fooled by him once
then i heard the other side of the story
boy
did that put things in perspective
bit by bit
i begin to see
how manipulative he is
but he's still a friend
and i dont deny he's well at heart
i think..
but anyway
used to follow along with whatever he said
now im a tad more cautious than before
and so this issue comes up
and now i can truly
say ive seen both sides
and i can truly say
how easily ive been swayed
from one opinion to another
by two very persuasive powers
hm
guess i have to learn
not to take things at face value anymore huh

anyway
i am so bored
no ones taken up my offer
to make life interesting
sigh

christmas party
19th dec
all debaterrs invited
7-11pm
pines cntry club
next to rgs
call to confirm attendance



focus

edit:
i realise ppl have really strange ways
of focusing
when playing sports
or debating
or whatever
its interesting really
you have the
keep calm and collected type
the
go mad and lash out type
etc

also
i think my laziness
to introduce
punctuation in my blog
is subconciously affecting
my already pathetic punctuation

posted by S @ Tuesday, December 14, 2004