Omerta

today
i let down
alot of people
i let down
spectators
expecting a good debate
i let down aaron and vishal
who had to put up with my crap speeches
i let down joan
who worked so hard for us
but what really irks me
the most
is that i let down
lau
auggie
kal
and hoe
thats the worst bit.
i know my speeches in both debates
could have turned the debate
but instead
it went the other way round.
and im sorry
sorry lau
sorry auggie
sorry kal
sorry hoe
i know i let you guys down today.
after round two
and a little scolding from adi's older bro
i felt like throwing it in
enough of debate for me
why bother
when i cant hold up
why bother when i lose two debates
on account of my speech?
why stay on
and disappoint more people
might as well..
go to rugby.
yeah
something ive been wondering about
so i wandered off during lunch break
i walked into the clocktower
onto the roof
around the gardens
through the primary school block
and back to the front
and there
i made a choice.
it is finished now
no more deliberating
no more hesistating
my path is clear
thanks sean, HJL, chin san, mel, yk
for tagging with ur opinions
thanks lee mey, hiu tung, weilin
for being really really
awesome dep-mates!
thanks john and sean..
haha, the advice of a friend nearby is more worth than a brother faraway
..at least i tihnk thats what the bible says..haha
thanks paul
yeah
i understand now
thanks for helping me see the light
thanks lucas
haha, interesting view on things
as usual!
and really
massive thanks
sith master
josh hiew
only you know
my passion for both
and trust me
you WERE a catalyst in my ultimate decision
but strangely enough
my largest thanks
go to
Bishop William F. Oldham and Principal T.W Hinch
yep.
in the front of barker road
there is a bust
of Oldham
and below it
there are words written by T.W Hinch
if im not wrong
they go something like this
" Willam Oldham lived his life so others could have tomorrows
and as heirs of this great instituition, surely we must do our part
but for those who hope, work and play
the best
is yet
to be."
yep
that
plus several either little phenomena
made up my mind
i let down my seniors today
but from this hour on
no more.

juniors
s3 seniors
mdm
joan
the club
lucas
josh hiew
sean
john
paul
this is my final decision
and my final call
i will debate
and
i
will
not
let
you
down
again.
i promise now
that i will debate
with a fire like never before
that i will strive
with a determination, unprecedented
that i will never give up
for all your sakes
for my own sake
for the sake
of this great institution
Anglo-Chinese School

next competition
meth cup.
the grand finale of team c
and win or lose
i plan
for us
to take the final bow
with a bang.
to blaze a trail
and set a precedent
like never before.
so hear me now
win or lose
we WILL take the methcup by storm

and suddenly
history flashes past
jg semi final
jg 3rd placing
NCS finals
meth cup
HCJCs
youth14s
...
JG finals
and i promise
that from now on
i will strive towards an unheard of excellence
i will pursue a level of perfection
in debate
for i realise
that i must
ALWAYS
hope
work
and play
for
the best is yet to be.

posted by S @ Saturday, October 23, 2004